"If I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a bed of roses, sink me in the river at dawn, send me away with the words of a love song."
Recently, I can't get this song out of my head. I've never thought what I would want people to do if I do die young. Maybe it's because I don't want to. Maybe it's because I want to go through this life the most I can before leaving. I want to climb the ladder of success, even if it means I'd have to fall several times before reaching the top. I don't wish to be a world renowned neurosurgeon to set my status as "Successful". I just want to go through doing what I like best. Of course, things don't come by easily. I would have to struggle and go through hardships before gaining something so dear. I wanna graduate from med school. I wanna be acknowledged as Dr. Choy. Oh, the fantasy. Comes with the burden of studying med degree for a long 5 years. Gotta go through it, don't I?
I don't want to leave before I lived a happy marriage with my loved one. I want to celebrate the happiness of finding my soul mate, my best friend and my other half. I want to be his happily wedded wife and be a mother to our kids, seeing them being successful. I'd like to see the world with him, making beautiful memories as time past. I want to go through a strong and lasting relationship with him, celebrating wondrous years of anniversaries together. I want to be a role model to my kids in the future, showing them how mum and dad are so lucky to have each other. Arguments, misunderstanding and disagreements are unavoidable. Being the man who loves me with all his heart, he would not let things get through us and just let me slip away. And trust me, my heart would only belong to one person once I've decided to give it away.
But who am I to say I don't want to die so soon? It's never our call, isn't it? Life is cruel when Death can just take someone with Him. Then we would cry and be sadden by his death and his absence in our lives from that moment the person takes in his last breath.
Life is short. We'll never know when will we just pass on to the next dimension. If I die young, I would want to be cremated. I want my ashes to be sprinkled at the places I've shared precious moments with my love. I would want to leave everlasting words to the people I love, leaving them with precious photographs so that they wouldn't forget about me. Think about the happiest moments we've gone through together and I wouldn't want them to cry. I want people around me to live life to the fullest though I am not there anymore. I just wish they would think of me sometimes. If I die young, it'll be a pity for I've not fulfill my wishes, but hey, we gotta get ready for these things right?
Treasure the ones you love, and make wonderful memories with them. After all, that's the only thing you can bring with you until you are taking your last breath. I love you mum. I love you Darling. I love you my sisters and my brother. My awesome besties, you guys are wonderful. Just want you to know that. :)
Tomorrow, another day I would be thankful to God for my continuous existence. I love my life. So, why not you?
P/S: The Band Perry's song, addictive. Lay me down on a bed of roses, send me away with the words of a love song. :)
